The Reason I Decided to Finally Start a Journal

Well I finally caved.
The guilt from my holiday indulgences could have something to do with it, but this started a week before the holidays. I have concluded that my problem is staying consistent on the weekends and the holidays.
-On the weekends I go to my boyfriend's lair for three days and I have convinced myself that those free days are my rest days.
-On holidays, I come home with my family and I am so mentally sick of school I do not want to do anything required at all in life.

And i'm getting tired of this. The reason for this post is not a new years resolution, but it just so happens that I will be returning to my second home for the new year so I vow to be the person I want to be starting January 6th. There is absolutely no point in me trying to start before then because I mentally know that I will not fully commit therefore, do not want it that bad until then. I cannot use any excuses that my parents don't have enough healthy food in the house, i don't have my long leggings, i don't have my running shoes, i don't have blah blah blah. You get it.

Wanting it bad enough….
This is the secret guys. This is the secret! When people say that there is no magic pill they're serious. People who make drastic jaw dropping weight changes that make you want to go run on the treadmill as soon as you see them were so committed because they wanted to change that bad! 
Which is why my favorite hashtag is #cuziwantithatbad

When I want a snickers bar after leg day and I have to walk down two flights of stairs to the vending machine…i want it so bad that I walk to the elevator with guilty eyes to take it one floor down so I can grab a snickers bar I'm not even supposed to have in the first place. But I did it #cuziwantitthatbad

When I refuse to eat candy for three weeks so I can break my bad candy habit #cuziwantitthatbad

It's not easy, but it starts with the little changes first. Getting a turkey wrap instead of a auntie anne's salted pretzel at the airport. Grabbing carrots instead of going out to buy a stack of lifesaver. Once I discipline myself mentally everything else will fall into place. I am so sure of this because it has happened before. Earlier this year at the end of January I began my fitness journey in 2013 and I was so hungry for transforming my body. I was willing to do whatever it took.

**I would wake up at 7am to get to downtown Chicago by 9am so I could workout two hours before my dance classes. I would cook every sunday for seven days of the week. I would eat in between classes, drink my protein shakes, take 2-3 dance classes a day, go to my "sit down and eat classes," then go home shower and do it all again. A 45min train ride, with a 10minute walk to the train station, in the blistering wind, yucky Chicago snow, and freezing cold, I made it to the gym. **

This is what made me happy. I remember nothing, but positivity when I would wake up in the morning and I was operating on this level. Yes there would be days when I was so tired and absolutely did not want to leave my snuggle cave and other times I would be pissy mad because I had to travel 45minutes downtown, but you know what?
Witin 15minutes of me warming up on the elliptical, I was so happy, proud, and felt accomplished that I AT LEAST got out of bed and ate breakfast.

It's the little changes that get you to the big accomplishments. So this whole post was an initiation post for myself.
I am committing to the following things:

The Discipline Challenge 
-Hot yoga for five days a week for the month of January
-Heavy workouts four days a week
-Cardio bunny Sat and Sun (make this routine)
-Meal prep on Sunday or Monday
-ONE cheat day on the weekend only!
-at least 30minutes of interpreting a day (yeah I said it)

Now, I understand things happen and routines get thrown off sometimes. I am also going to make sure that I do not get upset if I miss a workout or have to take an unscheduled rest day somewhere in there. I will be blogging about my journey through January about my experiences here starting January 6th!

I have created the following calendar for january. This seems a bit intense, and it is I must admit, but I feel like I want to take my fitness to the next level. I will stay loyal to my blogging throughout and do my best to stick to my plan for january. I am going to switch it up in February, but I just want to prove to myself again that I have the discipline and I can change my "wants" into "cans." January 6th here I come.

p.s. before and after pictures will be included.

Loving myself,
Shi